Hey Reader

I've been avoiding writing this one for a few weeks, because I don't like what I'm about to tell you.

Here we go: there are things I love about this work that I'm going to have to put on the bench for a while 😢

• Discovery calls with yoga and wellness teachers I haven't spoken to yet
• Responding to your DMs the way they deserve to be responded to
• This newsletter

These are parts of my work that light me up, the parts that remind me why I started, and right now I don't have enough time for them.

And it's not just work.

I don't have enough time to do everything I want to be doing, such as going for long walks every morning, spending every day in nature, meeting new people, reading a book from cover to cover, replying to those long voice messages my friends send me.

The list could go on.

What I've realised in the past weeks is that sometimes the stretch between what you want to be doing and what you actually have to do is real, and it's uncomfortable, and pretending otherwise doesn't help anyone.

But I know you've probably been through something similar yourself, especially if you're a teacher or a facilitator.

Because the tension I'm describing isn't unique to me.

You feel it too, just in a different shape.

It's the gap between what you actually want to be doing, teaching, facilitating, holding space for people, and what you have to do to keep everything running.

Crunching numbers.

Showing up on social media.

Replying to enquiries.

Taking care of the kind of repetitive admin that nobody talks about when they romanticise the life of a wellness teacher but that takes up a very real and significant chunk of your time and energy.

The stuff that has nothing to do with why you started and everything to do with whether you can sustain it.

That tension is exhausting.

And I think one of the most honest things we can do is name it rather than pretend it isn't there.

So this is me naming it, for both of us.

And while I know that the reason I'm pulling back for a few weeks is a project that I believe will genuinely change things for this community, I still hate that I have to do this.

So here's what this means practically.

• You might see less of me in your Instagram feed
• It might take me longer to get back to your DMs and enquiries
• I might not be able to jump on a discovery call with you for a while
• And this newsletter, which I genuinely love writing every week, is going to need to take a step back too

But I'll be back in a few weeks.

And when I am, I'll have something worth coming back for and that will genuinely help you.

Stay well and happy in the meantime, Reader.

Ciao ciao,

Milla

P.S. I will still try to post on Instagram on a semi-regular basis so follow me there until I'm back in your inbox.